Sunday, November 02, 2008

its already november and i guess quite alot of mixed feelings around.

yesyesyes. i will be going home in like a little more than a month.
yesyesyes. immense onslaught of work coming through with NVC, Work Committments, SSBA Stuffs and many many personal relationships complications.

happy that i am going home.
happy that i can see my family and friends.
happy that i will have the long-missed luxury of living in a comfortable environment.
happy that i do not have to worry about things happening at home and i am not informed.
happy that i am able to commute around freely.
happy that i will not feel unproductive at work when my boss aint around.

but on the other hand.

unhappy that i have to worry once again about tutorials,tests,exams and grades.
unhappy that i will once again fall under the watchful eyes of my family
unhappy that i will seriously miss all the relatively cheap and fucken good food around.
unhappy that i will have to watch the things i buy as my finances will be closely watched.
unhappy that i will never get to enjoy the independence i get down here.
unhappy that i will seriously miss people here in shanghai.

hohoho. and many many more happiness and unhappiness.
but yahlah. it was a hellueva great experience down here although sometimes i do get jealous seeing how people down in sv/bv driving cars and going on skydiving trips and having anything uber cool down there. yesyesyes. a tinge of jealousy but zyy doesn't complain and he's always happy with what he has and even if you gimme another chance to pick where to go. shanghai is still the place to come.

probably a little review on the things i have learnt here on my next blog post.
a little brain dead now and i think i'll be heading out to do some work soon.
but i guess one thing's for sure.
much more motivated and yes. i do know and have clearer impressions of what i want in the future. and whats most important is that i have equipped myself with the basic skills to meet the milestones and gear towards what i want.

new bonds made, some flourished-and-then-broken, some flourished-and-still-growing-strong. and many many more. but yes. i do feel that the last quarter here is like so hampered with handling personal stuffs and relationships with people .more to come when i get back. some stuffs aint so nice to talk about here.:)

everything's fine and yes. like everyone who's changing their phone numbers here in shanghai. im changing mine to 90214944 :). remember the +65 ah! :)))

and oh. some emo moments here before i forget. ernest and ckm. you guys have been the buy of the season. haha.

mr chua. our character is very much similar and the way we see and handle things. and yesyesyes.i really appreciate having you as a roommate here. i think i do have a very weird relationship with you. HAHA. usually best friends around talk almost everyday and everynowandthen, discussing all sort of issues among them. but yesyesyes.i think we do have a weird relationship. HAHA. although we don't really talk and rattle like nobody's business. but there's just something, a bond between us that makes me think that you're the most trustworthy person around and one i can definitely count on should i need help. a very strong emotional attachment that lets me feel that you will always be my closest and best buddy around. thank you so very much :)

mr yellowboy. i believe there were so many times when the relationship btwn us got strained in some ways when i cudnt see eye to eye with what you were doing and at the same time, you couldnt see what i saw. i wud describe our one year here as . up and down and up and down and yes. its up and there :)! i always feel that you're a great lad and someone that could be trusted all around. someone i cud rely on when i needed help and all.it was seriously great to have you around and please dont get emo too much! haha. completely overdosed for the year liao ah. :)). hoho. probably this will be the last chance we ever gonna live under the same roof and will cherish these remaining days alot :)

and to those brothers back home. thanks for taking good care of my family ad constant updates every now and then about home and all through our gay blog. HAHA. distance away has really made me cherish so much more and even the big fatty brother in sweden has made me cherished our bond so much more.

woohooo! enough of emonemos. time to get my ass to work :)
posted by deschutz. on 11/02/2008 11:43:00 AM